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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Hey all ever think about getting married? Kids?

Hmm to be young again...does every young gay man dream of such things...its so strange when you talk to younger guys how much you see your self at the same age...Its refreshing.....The thing is I don't look or act my age...I'm trying sometimes? more so the past few years...When does it make sense?...I keep thinking it's getting easier...then a hit it the path strikes me back...

Hmmm is it the secret to find a man and settle down...to be happy with some one...Its funny every time I'm with someone I get so distracted and confused....I hope to meet someone who can balance life and relationship with work and responsibility...I find most guys want so much of my time I get lost in the mix....

The new guy seems so real it could be scary but I'm going to try again...I think I deserve to share my life....I've let my self be alone for the past few years...I like the Idea of relationships...be it a month or a few weeks..I'm learning each time and I hope, that is I can only hope if this one doesn't work..it takes me closer to the next one working to the ultimate goal that is to share, love! live life...give, share, grow! get lost in each other and just feel...No more emptyness, what a concept? ones self to another...

OK I'm on track...

life IS LOOKING GOOD..its a day to day thing for me....

Hugz

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Monday, September 26, 2005

HI all

short and to the point post...

Single, boy was a user and a fraud....Helped him but he was not wanting my help couldn't let him bring me down...short of it drug problem, lied about being at baths for days...Hmmm didn't he think a guy who is in promotions who knows everyone in Toronto would find out? Silly boy...thing is I was turned on by it and wouldn't of cared, I only cared about being lied to...I'm into open relationships...or not depends on the Guy...

Move was bad, moving again at end of week...More about that another day....Lets just say I don't feel safe where I am now I had a good Idea what I was getting into but was wrong how severe the step down I was taking in living department...You do what you have to but this was the low of the lowest of places....

I'm very happy to say I'm going to be staying with a dear friend who at the end of next month is going to move into a two bedroom penthouse so I can live with him...Yah hoo...finally a place I deserve to live in...I'm so happy about this....

Survived the Birthday...Thank YOu all for the kind wishes...Was at a hot sex party for a day or so...Hmmmmm the thing is I met another cute young 21 boy...6 foot dark hair blue eyes and get this he is way into me thinks I'm hot real hot...I'm into him big time my dream boy looks...the age thing is not important but I tell you It works....We will see....Hmm two young boys this month...whats that all about? to think I'm 32 now to...

busy as I can be lots on the go.....I'll try to post more often...

anyone notice the hits toped 40 000 WOW that is a small city!

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Friday, September 16, 2005

Two days and its 32...Man when I think about it I never thought I would make it till 30 so I'm 2 years up on it....Still crazy...Life is chaotic...Keeps me strong......Getting busy...Hey I'm a survivor....

Peace hugs...

My mind is with the southern USA we are all there.....You will rebuild bigger and of course more fabulous....

Hugz...Love...Peace

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Monday, September 12, 2005

I met a guy...The thing is I've known him for 4+ years....He is 10 years younger than me...I think I'm in love with him......There has always been an attraction between us......We where together a few moths ago but just hooked up again a few weeks ago.....We have much in common in the health department.....In fact I'm there to support him while he is coming to terms with the news any gay guy dreads....I feel him so much....I can only let him know he is not going to dye....I care and give him my self to cry on listen to him just be there...I'm giving what ever I can....Wow this is the feeling that can only be found once in a blue moon you know that longing to be with him when your apart...When your mind is drifting only thoughts of him are there......Its been a brutal few weeks...I've cried a few times, gained a true love.....Moved...Lost a few friends....But all and all I've come out stronger in the end

And the new guy is so hot to...Its such a good feeling to be actually physically attracted to your bo......When he touches me there are sparks everywhere....Its been so long......I'm going slow, going to nurture this one.....Give and take.....And then give even more...Making sure neither of us get lost in each other, gain strength and grow with each other....Its a new thing for me and its about time....

I'm outz.....

PS its my 32 B-day on the 18th

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IM back its been a few weeks!

Did you all miss me?

Just wanted to let you all know I'm still alive will update more in the next few days..

Hugz

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