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Friday, July 01, 2005

SO its now been five days past pride and I feel ok now, I've not had a good run of it for some reason under stress I go crazy and get scatter brained...

I may have lost one of my valued client's because of some very stupid acts on my part...If I have! It will not be good but I will move on and see what is next as it is a new project has just came to me...So I will remain busy but still
this one is a very big one that I would say any single gay man in the USA would know and log onto all the time to find guys...coulndn't give a hint clearer without saying it....The thing is it was so dam hot here and I had several other obligations I could only be in so many places.

SO now it's on to porn and more porn promos...Have to love that go from major gay hook up site to porn and more porn....

I've been told I will have a few weeks of and that I will or may be replaced from the hook up site....I would be very sad but move on...I do know I will miss the opportunity and the extra income.....Plus the stature in the community that came along with it being able to do all kinds of events for them is very exciting I hope they reconsider and give me another chance...After all I have up till then put in 200% far beyond what was asked for...We will see....

Oh boy speaking about boys the one I met last Monday has been on my mind To bad he is on his way to the UK in a week or so...I do plan to see him again....Wow I am still recovering in certain parts of the body from that hot night of intense and I mean deep nasty over and over again fucking...Mmmm it could not have been a more satisfying way to end the week...Plus he is hot six foot, blue eyes and dark hair...

I think I will invite him out tonight for a night on the town.....And then a party in my bed....Oh I think I may be in lust or heat I do not know..I feel a sex marathon coming on..I seem to go through a spurt where I am a big slut and then nothing..For months...

on another note my right thumb has been numb for a few days now I am not sure what wrong Its like the nerve is damaged and when I put pressure on feels worse it
doesn't hurt but there is something wrong the feeling you get when you go to the dentist...Still some feeling, I am really worried because I work with my hands to a pint and this is not good, could it be HIV related, HIV med related, or pancreas related...Fuck if it's not all that it's my ackeing neck and so on the joys of being old...it seems like only months ago I was in Vancouver that young gay man innocent and wide eyed with opportunity with not a care in the world but where I was going that night and who I would be with..My friends at my side all of us with a lust for life and a passion for men the bars the party..You name it, its all lost it for me now I feel sad now usually and its just not there I really think that I missed something....

I shall get over it I am just depressed, I am doing a good job of keeping out a the bars considering the past few days...In past times like this I would have been drunk and hi to numb my failures and forget my pains....Instead I am letting it out here...

Ok I've been in bed the past few days its time to get on with it and pick up the pieces dust of and get out there and be the leader in this community that I am...

It's just to bad that in a moment of weakness this past weekend I had to hurt my interests in such a way, most often I am the only one affected by a bad move on my part but this time it was a big fuck up and there is I am afraid no moving back...I should add though that the job did get done and the company was very well represented in Toronto for Pride...We will see what happens....

I'm outz

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